I am always anxious.  Always have a little nervousness in my stomach.  Always a little worried something bad is going to happen.  Even a text or a call on my phone can trigger panic. I react a lot.  Yell at the guy in front of me in the car.  Respond to a problem with one…

I didn’t feel like running this morning.  I don’t feel like going to work tomorrow.  When I get home from a long day of work, a TV show and disconnection sounds a lot better than a meaningful conversation with my wife. This morning on the trails near my house, I heard the wind blowing through…

“If you make sure you’re connected, the writings on the wall;  But if your minds neglected, stumble you might fall.” -Stereo MCs I really don’t like the Stereo MCs.  It was a 90’s band, and all of the music annoyed me.  I was more of a grunge guy. Last week I was going to the…

There is an old tale of two wolves.  You may have heard this story.  An old Cherokee told his grandson there is a battle going on inside people, the battle of two wolves.  One is evil; anger, greed, regret, etc.  The other is good; love, hope, kindness, peace, etc.  The grandson asks who wins, the…

Everyone has a plan until they get punched in the face. -Mike Tyson We all have opinions, biases, prejudices, thoughts. My family has grown up with another family.  We’ve had dinners and vacations together.  Children being born and family members passing.  Needless to say, we’ve known them for a very long time. What happens when…

“The proper function of man is to live, not exist.  I shall not waste my days trying to prolong them, I shall use my time” -Jack London Most of my life has been existing.  As a child from a severely broken home (early on) I had to grow up fast. My first job at 12ish…

“I want it now” -Veruca Salt, Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory I certainly don’t sound nearly as entitled when I say it.  But I say it.  I think we all do. These are not always tangible items…new car, new shoes, new watch.. I want to be free from anxiety and money pressures.  I want…

I have always been drawn to music.  My first concert was the Monkees.  But in my preteen years, when most started developing a personal taste, my parents found religion.  The rigid doctrine kind.  The kind that opposes the “secular”.  The kind that takes kids on retreats and makes bonfires with cassette tapes and CD’s. I…

All week I have been wrestling with an idea.  It was a statement from a podcast I was listening to.  If God were a 1000 watt lightbulb, and I am a 60 watt lightbulb, what would happen if He gave me all His power?  Or just a fraction of that power? I think throughout our…

“No man steps in the same river twice, for it’s not the same river and he’s not the same man.” Heraclitus A couple weeks ago my wife and I celebrated 28 years of marriage.  We started dating when I was 15, I am 46 now.  I have spent more of my life with this person…